Calcutta: Manoj Tiwary isn't feeling let down by the national selectors' decision to not include him in the squad for the first two Tests against England.
He has taken it "in the right spirit" and vowed to keeping scoring runs in the Ranji Trophy. He knows well that only loads of runs will help him find a berth in the side.
"My reaction was normal when I first came to know about it after tea from (Ashok) Dinda that no player from Bengal was in the squad for the first two Tests. It's a part and parcel of any sportsman's life… I've taken it in a positive way and in the right spirit," the Bengal captain said on Monday.
"There were a lot of thoughts that came into my mind when I came to know about it. My next target is to perform in the coming days in the Ranji Trophy…"
After having scored consistently at the domestic level and in the limited opportunities at the international level, doesn't the thought of what next crop up in his mind?
"Yeah it does… But we've quite a few games coming up. I always try to motivate myself by thinking that I have a lot of time… I am young, and touchwood, things will fall in place… The big runs will come. I just have to be patient."
"I don't regret anything in life nowadays… I always focus on my next innings. I keep myself in the right frame of mind and don't want to be distracted by any negative thoughts," he explained.
"My mindset is tough. I learnt a lot of things when I sat out for 14 ODIs after scoring a hundred. I know how to motivate myself in the right direction…
"I've got used to such things now. Thankfully, I've people around me who guide me in such tough times and help me a lot. Such things don't distract me any more. I've matured as a person."
The Bengal captain's next match will be against Punjab in Mohali from Friday. "I love playing for Bengal… I'm a firm believer that day is not far away when things will fall in place. It would be a dream come true if I get to debut at the Eden."
Bengal coach Woorkeri Raman, too, couldn't hide his feelings. "The squad has been an interesting pick… I was surprised to see four openers unless (Ajinkya) Rahane has been included as a middle-order batsman. Manoj will obviously feel bad… This is a tough one and not much anything can do about it."
On Dinda's exclusion, Raman said: "With the captain (Mahendra Singh Dhoni) harping on spinners, it was likely that most of the fast bowlers, barring the top-3, would miss out… It's only logical that three spinners will be in the side and I don't see any chance for four pacers."
Manoj's teammate Wriddhiman Saha, though, felt differently. "I would always prefer them to play matches than sitting in the bench because that helps to enhance your confidence."